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Doechii - DENIAL IS A RIVER
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THIS is one of…
PHOTO CREDIT: Eric Johnson for Cosmopolitan
my favourite songs of the past decade. I am a big fan of Doechii, and DENIAL IS A RIVER is a true modern classic. This modern Rap great at her peak! A standout from that mixtape, DENIAL IS A RIVER was released last January. The song features Doechii's therapist alter-ego, to whom Doechii narrates the conditions of her own life, such as failed relationships involving her being cheated on and developing a drug addiction. That real struggle to balance her career with her personal life. DENIAL IS A RIVER was a hit on the US Billboard Hot 100 and won huge critical praise. Its video is also fascinating and received a lot of focus and interest. I am going to come to some reviews of the song. One that is a modern masterpiece in my view. I want to start with part of a Cosmopolitan interview from last year. The subject of this remarkable song came up:
“That vulnerability is also such a key component of your music. “DENIAL IS A RIVER” redefined the heartbreak song and represents a post-relationship crash-out pretty accurately. How soon after a traumatizing romantic situation can you put pen to paper?
Sometimes I have to process things before I can talk about them, because if I try to do it immediately, I’m gonna say the wrong thing. But that song took me a year to process. I didn’t want to give my ex any promo in my music. And I talked about three different exes in that song. People think it’s just one! I decided I had to talk about it for me.
Have you ever been involved with a partner who’s creatively limited you?
I only felt that way once. I was 18, and I was dating a guy who just wasn’t very supportive of my music, and it really stifled me. I stopped writing because he was just like, “That’s not cool.” I took his opinion way too seriously when really he just didn’t get it. I remember listening to SZA’s Ctrl for the first time and it literally gave me the courage to break up with him. I only bring that up because she inspired me to be vulnerable through my music in a way that I didn’t think I could be.
It happens all the time. I’ll see so many of my friends with someone and I’m like...
He literally hates you.
Have you ever made a song to help people regain power after a relationship like that?
“GIRLS,” the first song I dropped that went viral, was 100 percent about that ex. I had been working on it for a year and I played it for him, and he was like, “This sucks. What are you even talking about?” And I was like, “Oh yeah, I got to fix this.” And the girls loved it because they felt me.
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One man’s—I don’t want to say trash, but...
No, seriously! I think it boils down to: “You’re not a creative, so you don’t understand why this is important to me. And you don’t even love me enough to support me in something that you don’t understand because you’re selfish. And this is for women—this is not for you.”
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Have you had any people you’ve written about reach out and say something?
If I’m writing about you in the negative, you can’t reach out—you’re blocked”.
DENIAL IS A RIVER is such a fascinating song. In terms of its layers and components. Doechii’s amazing vocals and the sort of conversation she has with herself through it. Rolling Stone broke down DENIAL IS A RIVER for their feature. I have seen others that dissect the verses and composition. Always interesting reading people go deep with a song:
“Ditching the formula was essential for Doechii while she was in the studio cooking up her latest mixtape, Alligator Bites Never Heal. She knows the appeal of a big commercial hit, something palatable and only barely creative — something almost anyone could do. But her musical interests are more deeply connected to delivering unique stories that find humor in dark situations. On the latest episode of Rolling Stone‘s The Breakdown, the Florida rapper explains how moving away from any preset expectations and carving out her own path led her to “Denial Is a River.”
“I was really afraid of how raw and honest I was being in that record,” Doechii explains. “And I know that a lot of my fans really, really love that record because I made it humorous, but it actually is very, very dark.” The song was inspired by a journal entry and the chronological flow of Slick Rick’s classic “A Children’s Story.” Doechii locked in with her engineer Jayda Love and created a gripping story about finding out her ex-boyfriend cheated on her with a man.
“This song is really just like people hearing how I am, the inner dialogue that I’m having with myself. Like, OK, maybe you should really unpack that,” she said. “This is an inner dialogue that I’m having with the voices in my head. It just seems like I’m less crazy because I do it with a funny voice.” The approach gave her structure, but didn’t take away from her strengths as a lyricist.
Love, who watched the record pour out of Doechii in the studio, shares: “I wasn’t surprised to hear how honest she was. The only surprising factor of it was just how quickly it came about. But the contents of the song were not surprising at all.”
Doechii was in the process of creating an album when an unexpected creative detour led her to Alligator Bites Never Heal. She needed that experience to break away from being codependent on her label and the opinions of everyone else around her. She had to figure out her formula for herself. “That was my version of like, all right, I’m gonna let everything go. I’m getting sober. I’m not talking to nobody. I’m not talking to my label. I’m finna be in my house. I’ma paint and I’ma write, and I’m not talking to anybody,” Doechii says. “That’s me exploding, when I exclude myself and I shut down and I get in my hermit.”
What she learned in the process was that making music was a way to streamline her healing process. “I have to make music for therapy. And for me, that’s my formula,” she says. “If it blows up on TikTok, it blows up. But I can’t make music from that place. It distracts me, and then I’m not able to tell the truth. Sometimes, those formulas that fit for pop and radio and TikTok and the internet, you’re making music for moments. Instead of making music for therapy, you dilute your message. You dilute your creativity. You lose something — you lose the story”.
I am going to finish with this review. If you have not heard DENIAL IS A RIVER then go and watch the video on YouTube. I would urge you also to check out the phenomenal mixtape, Alligator Bits Never Heal. That came out in 2024. I wonder if we will get a mixtape of album from Doechii this year:
“Doechii's "Denial Is A River" is a sharply written story of her deeply personal struggles she has faced throughout her life, especially over the past few years. All while doing so, she also incorporates so much of her signature humor within it too. She is such a dynamic and captivating storyteller, one that is simultaneously very funny and clever, but also very real and honest.
In an interview with Rolling Stone, Doechii opened up about the time in her life that inspired this song. "With 'Denial Is a River,' I felt some fear there because it's really me being extremely literal and vulnerable about my situation. It is a very vulnerable thing, especially as an artist," she said. "Just a little backstory, I went through a period where I was afraid to be vulnerable in my music, which is odd for me because that’s all I usually do. I was saying to my engineer, 'I don't want to talk about my feelings because right now all I feel is negativity. All I feel is sadness. I feel anger. I'm upset with everything and everybody. And my fans don't want to hear that.' But my engineer was like, 'It's not for them, it's for you. You need to talk about it.' So, it was very scary for me to be that vulnerable on 'Denial Is a River,' which is why I think that I made it funny; so that it could be a bit easier to process the darkness of that record."
It was released in summer of 2024 on her third mixtape, Alligator Bites Never Heal, but started gaining more traction in early 2025. She also won her first Grammy for Best Rap Album in 2025, making her only the third female artist in history to win that award, following in the footsteps of Lauryn Hill and Cardi B. I recently discovered her music and have been obsessed with it ever since. When I first saw her NPR Tiny Desk performance, I was just so blown away by her insane skill and the precision of which she performs. Everyone involved is so immensely talented. She also blew me away during her 2025 Grammy's performance of this song and "Catfish", along with the string of other late-night performances she's done recently. Doechii is truly a legend in the making and has such a bright career ahead of her.
"Denial Is A River" is written from such a cool perspective, almost as if she's breaking the fourth wall to the listener and fully dictating her inner dialogue to the audience. She raps about moving from Florida to Hollywood and getting wrapped up in the allure of it all, getting thrust into some bad situations. Doechii opens up about everything from her drug addiction to her relationship troubles. It really dives into the story of her life for the past five years or so.
It is also very conversational as well. The song's title is in reference to an old Wendy Williams quote from her radio show, "Denial is a river in Egypt and your husband is gay". Funny enough that is also a storyline in Doechii's song too, as she details the story of her boyfriend cheating on her with another man. The opening of the song is almost as if she is telling the story on a radio show too, with the host saying, "You know it's been a lil' minute since you and I have had a chat...Probably since, like, your last EP, Oh the Places You'll Go". The song was also inspired by "A Children's Story" by Slick Rick too, she told Rolling Stone that "...this is an inner dialogue that I’m having with the voices in my head. It just seems like I'm less crazy because I do it with a funny voice."
Following her breakup in 2019, she fast-forwards to 2021 when she first got signed to a record label. "I'm movin' so fast, no time to process," she says. "Wrist watch, drip drop, label want the TikToks, now I'm makin' TikTok music, what thee fuck? I need a cleanse, need a detox, but we ain't got time to stop, the charts need us".
"Denial Is A River" is one of the most popular songs from Alligator Bites Never Heal, it keeps gaining more momentum every week on the charts and on social media. It's funny how that works because the song comes from a place of being frustrated with record labels wanting her to make music that will go viral and do well on TikTok. It's really refreshing to see a song gain so much popularity that pushes back against the trends and make something with the opposite intention.
Issa Rae also makes a spoken-word cameo throughout the song too, serving as a voice of reason, like a friend or a therapist trying to talk her down from this spiral she's having. The music video similarly brings all of these emotions to life, as the perfect ode to classic 90's sitcoms with Doechii herself as the main character of it all. The song itself has a very throwback feel to it as well, which they translated so well into a visual format.
By the end of the second verse into the third, she opens up about what 2023 was like for her. "I'm stackin' lots of cheese and makin' money, my grass is really green, and honestly, I can't even fucking cap no more, this is a really dark time for me". Doechii goes on to talk about her addiction and getting wrapped up in a dangerous Hollywood lifestyle, which provided her with short-term pleasure, but was starting to have a negative impact on her mental health. "I like doin' Hollywood shit, snort it? Probably would," she sings, "What can I say? The shit works, it feels good and my self-worth's at an all-time low". She opened up about her sobriety in her acceptance speech at the 2025 Grammy's, when she won the award for Best Rap Album. "I put my heart and my soul into this mixtape," she said through tears. "I bared my life. I went through so much. I dedicated myself to sobriety and God told me that I would be rewarded and that He would show me just how good it can get."
"Denial Is A River" is also officially Doechii's first solo Hot 100 entry on the Billboard charts. On Twitter in January 2025 she wrote, "My first solo entry is a satire about one of the lowest points in my life and has no hook. A message to smaller artists: Create whatever art you want there's really no rules”.
A queen of modern Rap and Hip-Hop, I think Doechii is going to go down as one of the all-time greats. DENIAL IS A RIVER is an example of her genius. Not only in terms of the songwriting and her vocals. How she can switch emotions and characters. More of an actor rather than a singer, she also makes these phenomenal videos that are like works of art. I think she will have a career as an actor too. There are few modern artists as extraordinary…
AS Doechiii.
